:(

I want to let you go and make you happy, I’m sick and tired of making you sad.
But, I can’t find it in me to let you go.
I’m sorry Henry, you gave me so many chances and all I did was disappoint you, every single time.



September 3rd 2011

I wake up and fight with my mom, yelling and screaming.
Henry and I broke up.
Yesterday marked 3 months since Happy passed away.



I feel so empty


Have you ever had a controlling boyfriend/girlfriend? - No.

Have you ever written a love letter to someone as a joke? - Nope.

How many true heart breaks have you had in your lifetime? - One.

Who last grabbed your ass? - Henry.

Have you ever cut yourself? - No.

Do you get a ‘Good Morning’ text from someone every day? - No. 

Do you have any gay family members? - I don’t think so.

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? - I’m borrowing Grace’s shirt. 

Do any of your friends dislike each other? - Yeah, plenty. 

Who is your last missed call from? - My sister.

Do you feel like everything is falling apart around you? - Yeah, most of the time. 

Was your first kiss romantic? - Nope, it was embarrassing.

Do you miss any of your ex’s right now? - Yeah.

Have you ever overdosed on anything? - No.

Is your dad really strict? - I don’t think so.

What would you say if you found out your last ex was in a relationship? - I would cry forever.

Who was the last person to text you before you went to bed? - Henry.

How many chances do you tend to give people before enough is enough? - Infinity.

Do you know anybody whose last name is a color? - No. D:

What are you most likely to go to jail for? - Stealing?

Where was your last kiss? - Outside before I went home. 

How do you feel about the last person who texted you? - I feel confused. 

Do you get along with your siblings? - Yeah.

Whos the last person that broke your heart? - The only person that has. 

Who was your date to Prom? - Carrington, but, he slept so i did my own thing. 

Who is the last person you called a bitch? - No one. 

Do you still talk to your first love? - Yeah. :D

Whos wedding did you go to first? - My Aunts?

When is the last time you went to the beach? - A while ago.

Do you ever feel like life is going by too fast? - Too fast. 

Are you ashamed of anyone you’ve dated in the past? - No.

What about anyone you’ve been friends with? - No.

Have you ever made out with someone in a pool? - I don’t think so. 

What are you doing this weekend? - Probably nothing. 

Whos the last person that slept over your house? - Henry…

Do you still talk to the last person you kissed? - Sort of.

Are you frustrated with anyone right now? - Yeah.

Have you ever kissed someone with a tongue ring? - …..

Is it hard for you to get over a lover? - So hard. 

Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex? - Yeah.

Was your mom ever a stripper? - No..

What did you dream about last night? - I forgot.

Who was the first person that texted you today? - Henray.

Do you regret any of the relationships you were in? - Yeah, they don’t count to me. 

Have you ever tried making someone jealous? - Yeah.

How many tattoos do you have? - None.

Do you have good or bad dreams more often? - More so weird. 

Do alot of people think bad things about you? - Yeah, that’s what I hear. 

Do you wear a toe ring? - No.

Who’s the last person you said I Love You to? - Henree.

Is there someone that always intimidates you? - I guess. 

Have you ever liked anyone that was in a relationship with someone else? - Yeah.

Are you afraid of clowns? - Nope.

Do you think that your classy? - No.

Have you ever wanted to be famous? Nope.

Would you ever get a boob job? - I would get a boob reduction job.

Did your last relationship end because of you or the other person? - Me.

Do you ever ignore texts from some people? - Yup.

Have you ever tried to break up anyone because YOU liked the guy/girl? - No.

Is your belly pierced? - Nope.

Have you ever cried cuz you missed someone so much? - Yeah.

When is the last time you felt left out? - All the time. 

Who is the last person you flirted with? - No one. 

What would you think if you found out your ex was gay? - …….

WHy aren’t you texting the last person you kissed? - It’s complicated.

Would you ever take someone back if you found out they cheated on you? - I don’t know.

Who are you texting right now? -  no one. 

What does your last text message say? Lol nice

What color is your hair right now? - Some weird brown.

Do you keep a diary/journal? - I used too.

Whos the most racist person you know? - Myself.

Are you more afraid of your mom or dad? - My dad.

When is the last time you ate chocolate? - Yesterday.

Do people ever compliment your eyes? - I have no eyes.

Have you ever lied to your boyfriend/girlfriend? - No.

Do people ever tell you that your funny? - Yeah.

When is the last time you saw one of your ex’s? - I don’t know.

Who was the last person you hung out with? - Grace.

Which one of your ex’s do you hate the most? - None of them.

Would you be upset if you caught your boyfriend looking at porn? - I know they did/do, I think it’s funny.

Out of everyone you kissed, give me the initials of the best kisser? - HH

Do you regret alot of things you did in the past? - No.

Whos the last person that called you in the middle of the night? - No one.

What would you say if your last ex told you they still loved you? - I love you too.

How many people have you kissed this year? - One.

Have you talked to a complete asshole today? - No.

Have any of your ex’s ever given you roses? -No.

How many people has your best friend had sex with? - Zero.

What’s the last song you listened to? - Stereo Hearts. 

Who is the last person you went to the movies with? - Grace Kim and the gang. 

Are you an only child? - Nope.

Whats your Zodiac sign? - Taurus.

How long have you known the last person you kissed? - Five years. 

Do you think one of your friends is a slut? - No.

Do you think your last ex ever thinks about you? - Maybe.

Would you ever take any of your ex’s back? - Yeah.

Whos the last person that hung up on you? - ,My mom.

Are you a bitch? - Yeah.

Do you look intimidating? - I look friendly. 







My Summer

The past couple days of my summer have been amazing. I spent 2 days with Henry teaching him how to parallel and back up, or at least I tried and he passed his test. Then we went to Virginia to get my shots taken. I had to take 4 shots and I have to go back on Sunday to get one of my shots checked. After my shots we went to Pho to eat. I wasn’t feeling good, emotionally and physically so I started crying in the restaurant but he made me feel better. After we went to visit his close family and I saw that his grandpa was really sick and it reminded me of the time when my grandma got sick. Henry cried and I did too, it always hurts seeing someone you love in so much pain. I think his grandma liked me because she gave me one of her lotions and told me that it was a souvenir, I’m going to take it to college. We left their house really late at night and went home in a good mood. The next day, today, not so much. We broke up today, I know why and I understand but it’s still hard for me to really take it in. I don’t really know what to do. He was my harshest critique and I always wanted to better myself for the sake of us, but I guess it wasn’t enough. My friends always taught me that if someone wanted to break up with me that I had to let them go. I couldn’t keep holding on to them when they didn’t want to be with me. I’ve been doing what was wrong for the longest time so I guess now’s the best time to learn from mistakes. Well, the rest of my summer’s going to suck ass. I have 33 days left, and I feel like I’m going to be spending it playing tetris.



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